launching & gastritis attack

Last 21st ASTRo ada buat launching of new Islamic Show - Ar Rahyan (i think) hosted by Dr Fatma...So i was fortunate that my Chef is an Egpytion. Manage to take picture with her. So happy sangat....

Then next day was a bad day for me. I got gastric attack. Smp menangis-nangis kat tmpt keje. Mula-mula try control macho but tak boleh TAHAN.... Telefon my husband no response. (guess he is still angry). Called my father (back in Ipoh)...crying and sobbing...(Remember when i were small, i always fall back to my father. Please make the pain go away)

My manager took me to the panel clinic where they gave me 2 white tables and air 'kapur' (i dunno what i was called). 2 mins after that i vomit. Then the doctor gave me the white tablest again but no progress. Sakit lagi ada la. The doctor asked my manager to take me to the hospital. I tried calling my husband to send me tapi he did not pick up the phone. (Sedih pun ada, the i know i have to survive on my own)...Luckily, I had a good and kind manager who was able to send me to the hospital. I ask my colleagues, kak misah to accompany me. She was so kind. She has to wheeled me to the emergency room and stayed until I was okay. I had 2 injection at first but still the pain won't go away. Then the doctor gave me another one. Baru LEGA....I was able to walk and eat again. The doctor took blood and ask to go for x-ray and refer me to a surgeon. They have detained me in the observation ward. The next day i can go home but i was still feeling cramp in my stomoch. The doctor said i had severe gastric where my stomach is luka. So have to watch out of no spicy food...
I kena makan ubat for a month. That night my husband still did not came...He could have come and brought me new clothes to change. Nasib my sister in law came and brought food (boy, was i hungry)...and clothes.

I can't forget the feeling the whole night. I miss Haqqeem so much and it is my first time not sleeping with him....Sabar...Fikiran yg negetif akan melemahkan kita aje...(my brother said)..So i need to be strong for my child...mama is going to be strong for you...for you my precious baby....