8.2.2004

Two years ago, on this date was my engagement. Byk yg berlaku lead to this engagement. I knew my husband 3 months before we got engage. How i know him? Hehe ..through e-kawan. You just register in this website..e-kawan..then register your handphone no. Your handphone no will not be disclose only your code will then you will get sms from who wants to be your friend. Byk jugak lah top up prepaid.

Masa tu I ngah frust menongeng, tergolek, terduduk sebab kena tipu....bila i jumpa dia..so i accepted his offer. ntahla...masa tu i bosan sesangat kawan ngan org..tak tahu apa ending..

My ex was same age as me...He has all the character that i ever wanted in a man...(cehwah, i hope he does not read this..kalau tak..perasan) Orang kata bila kita cari jodoh..biarlah saling melengkapi..he is opposite side of me..most of it tapi we share the same interest...main bowling,suka jalan-jalan and suka tengok bollywood movies...Bila ngan dia dulu, i never missed to see bollywood movies..hahaha..tapi skrg..dah lama tak layan cite bollywood...rindu lak...

What great about him is bila u feel down and wanted a booster..his word of advice can really turn u on..(bukan on lain tau..i mean motivate)..may be sebab dia pandai berkata-kata...sebab tu kot ramai perempuan suka kat dia....so masa tu he is like my strength...

Kalau nak ingat balik zaman bercinta dulu...byk manis dan pahit...i tried not to remember anymore.terlalu sedih..semua tu dah jadi kenangan...ada yg slowly buat i lupa ...now hanya tinggal bits and pieces...and i hope i am able to put him behind...

I hope my son takkan buat seorg perempuan mengharap pada dia..treat org baik-baik...jgn ambik kesempatan atas kebaikan org...

There are some good traits in him that i hope my son would have...tapi biarlah ia jadi rahsia hati i...


Kalau dibandingkan kehidupan i sebelum dan lepas kahwin.. I prefer my marriage life. Of chourse it is hard to live with someone yag di brought up dgn cara yg berlainan dari kita...tapi ntahla..i rasa lebih tenang...lebih selamat dari masa i single dulu...enjoy tapi tak de matlamat...Bila dah kahwin, ada anak..i know where i want to go....what i want my future life will be...

Sapa kata kahwin senag...eh..kahwin memang le senag tapi nak maintain bukan senang...especially if you compare yourself with others..and your previous relationship....takkan satisfied..sampai mati pun takkan satisfied...

I pun bukan lama kahwin ..baru nak masuk 2 tahun...tapi what i kept telling myself is to compromise and sabar...Sabar paling perlu..(mcm lagu P.Ramlee tu..heheh)...and to hold my touge bila marah...Kita tak boleh curah minyak pada api yg tengah marak kan...tu lah...bukan senang nak maintain kesabaran tuh...especially bila ada bad words yg involve...

Anyway..kita kena byk musahabahkan diri.....(that is what my brother always tell me)...tapi kalau tak tahan sgt...let the steam out..nanti meletup tapi jgn pada sasaran...tulis ke...channelkan pada benda lain...nanti rasa lega kot...;)